Another Holiday – Another Year

For those who know me well, I’m incredibly goal oriented.  I have lists for just about everything I do and my calendar has everything to do for that day.  I (for the most part) get through all the things for the day and sometimes some items for a future date.  I plan, I organize, and I give myself deadlines.

The adoption process hasn’t been much different for me.  Since I started the process in January of 2016, I’ve set goals. “This Mothers’ Day I’ll be a mom.”  “Definitely by Labor Day.” “Thanksgiving would be perfect.” “This will be an awesome Christmas with my new baby.”  I’ve said that all for the last 2 1/2 years.  I wish I could say it gets easier, but it doesn’t.  It gets harder.  Every holiday missed, every goal not met gets harder and makes me wonder,”will this every happen?”  I tend to stay away from social media during the big holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas) because it’s too hard to watch other people celebrate their little ones when I can’t celebrate my own.

I know, I know.  “Be patient, Maeve.”  “You’re little one is out there.” These words used to be comforting and a good reminder, but honesty, 2 1/2 years of being “patient” and  waiting for my little one isn’t making it any easier.

Regardless of how I feel with Mothers’ Day coming up, I do wish my favorite moms a wonderful day!  And boy do I know some amazing moms.

Happy Mothers’ Day all.

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