I was recently listening to a video or a podcast (I can’t remember) and the person being interviewed made the comment that “You are always right on time. You are where you’re supposed to be.” I loved this quote – obviously because I’m writing about it now.
I’ve said it over and over again, the last almost 3 years, that it’s been a rough road. I have no idea why I had an agency file for bankruptcy and shut its door with no warning, why I had three failed adoptions in 7 months. I have no idea and it doesn’t really matter because I am where I am supposed to be. I don’t know what the future holds and that’s okay. I’m doing what I need to do today so that I can be ready for tomorrow. Tomorrow morning I’ll wake up and will start to get ready for Wednesday. It’s a constant bettering of myself, a constant learning, and a constant belief that although I may not understand, that it’ll all work out.
I can’t fight what I have no control over and I can’t be pissed off at the world because my life hasn’t turned out the way that I wanted or planned it to turn out. Let me rephrase that last sentence. I choose not to fight what I have no control over and I choose not to be pissed off at the world because my life hasn’t turned out the way that I wanted or planned it to turn out. Although I don’t know where the journey will take me, I have total control over how I react to the journey. I choose!
I have learned so much about myself and my support system during the last few years that I truly believe only a few have the opportunity to learn this much about themselves – or better yet, few have chosen to learn and grow from what life has handed them. I’m not saying that everyone should go through this or any sort of hardship (and I do realize that compared to a lot of people – my adoption journey is not a hardship!). What I’m saying is that I have let the last few years mold me, shape me, and teach me what is important.
I know that I’m stronger, my support system is more fierce than ever, and that I am where I’m supposed to be. Thank you for being on this journey with me. I am grateful for the village, all that you have taught me, all that you’ve listened to, and all the love that you will give the little munchkin(s) that enter my home.
Have a wonderful and safe Thanksgiving!